t o o . l a z y . t o . s m i l e .
i wanna know wt it feels like t faint.
n o b o d y
wud care .
if u dont care, nobody does.
too much h/w . too much loneliness . i feel left out . too much thinking -
i love him.
&damn this is embarassing t post. bt i wanna.
have u ever felt like this bfore? bet u havent .
lucky, lucky u. not a worry in th world .
thers nobody significant in ur brain, rite ?
nobody .. u think abt before u go t sleep?
nobody .. u dream abt ?
nobody .. u wish u cud c everyday?
nobody .. u want to b next to til th end of time?
bcuz i do .. all of those.
-
Wednesday, 30 January 2008
Sunday, 27 January 2008
Thurs-Fri-Satur Day :]
*later this evening:- tough luck syania. gotta wait 10 more days til th hardware comes. my God, i need more patience than i thot ._. 10 more days of utter 'wt-am-i-gunna-do-tday' dread D:
Th weekend was wild. I hardly stayed at home XD
On thursday dhe3 came over, bt she wz at nisa's. Afta skul we went t CC i think, n th mom's except tnte lisna went t th Ritz t c this bag exhibition [maybe] n i regrettd tht i ddnt go cz i had nothin t do.
I was so mad then. In th car dhe3 n nisa wer yappin away n at th front i wz just staring out th window.
At home after prayin n eatin i went outside n dcided t take pictures. Just as i wz pickin up my camera at th side of my house wher i tuk pix of me n chains, tnte ita's car passd by n i know they wer lukin at me. I saw their heads. :"D
Terribly embarassed, i went inside th house.
After they left, i went back outside n tuk more pix. Dhea, dhe3 n nisa passd by from th other side of th compound n they ddnt even take notice of th lonely me, cept dhea. Thanks dhea.
We hadta ngaji~~
After tht, we played outside, i think. Ummm.. yes we did. :]
We tuk pix n just walked around.. th sky wz rele beautiful then.
Later on we went t kempoo!! Sadly ther wz no elang D:
In kempo we wer with Sensei Jodi or wtever his name is n i kpt scrapin my knee on th brick floor x.x;; it hurted!!
Bt th lesson wz dead fun cz well.. it wz funny n random XD
Cania made this effin freaky wobbly head n pokin out eye thingy n i wz ACTUALLY screamin whilst laughin at th same time. Runnin away too xD
Oh yes! Thursday was afdal's bday :]
I calld out his name at home-time n screamed happy birthday :b Sorry for not drawin anythin mi prend > <;;
On our way home we stopped at baskin robbins *yummm~* n ate sandwiches in th car :b They wer tres delicieuse.
Then, tnte chandra n om ali invited me over t sleepover at their house!! XDXXDXD since nisa wz takin tnte lisna t th airport, dhe3 stayed at dnf's. I went home t take a shower n stuff first, then at 10:30 i went ther.
We just observed MTV, lukd at vids in th internet, ate, tuk lots of pix.. *we even went t th bathroom t take pictures of flowing water XD .. n thts it! MD came at like 12:30 or somethin cz of a reason which i find extremely ridiculous -o-;;
We slept at like 1 somethin after more picture takin :b
Th sleep wz quite comfortable. I wz beside Farah n dhea, i think. I woke up t sholat n then tuk a short nap til 8; nobody else wz awake then so i went home t eat breakfast n stuff.
At 10 or somethin i went back ther n then .. we played outside? Ahh.. I went t nisa's, yes, thts it :] Me n her wer editing a rele cool pic of dhe3's kempo belt wrapped around nisa's head. x]
After a while we went outside.. I think. Or dd we go t my house? Yeah we did. CC came by then n they started watchin japanese shows bt i wz too busy doin my h/w.
By 3pm we wer outside talkin n runnin; then afta sholat-ing we went t th clubhouse t watch National Treasure 2! Indra n adi n ghabot wz ther btw :3
Me n nisa finished th popcorn indra bot XDXDXD *we are indeed th hungriest ppl in sekompond ;D
We went home first t sholat at maghrib, some ppl hadta go t th pengajian which wz at Nadhira's compound. Dhea n MD wer makin cupcakes x]
Then, we finished th movie, until about 7 or wtevers. It wz nice, and very smart too. I liked Riley >///< src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" width="15" height="15"> And reminded me of mr.turkington xD;;
After cleanin up n all we went t my house wer th cupcakes wer just abt finished.
We put all th frosting n whipped cream n crap [no no we dd NOT put brown waste on them XXDXDXDXD] n then ate! Ther wer lots left over n i started dressin them up as ppl put frosting on each other's faces, playd th laptop, wtchd th tv, wtever.
When i wz done n indra n adi already went home, th girls listened t ghabot's stories at th dinner table then moved their setting to th tv area. I wznt rele interested in hearin them cz they wer only talkin abt teachers..
I got so tired at 9:30 tht after i put cream n sholat, i went t bed, ignoring evrybody else tht wz still out ther n just comfortably dozin off til 5:45 th next day. :]
--
Next day, Friday 26th, th day i wz MEANT t be sick on, i tried t complete my h/w after havin an argument with ocha who selfishly ddnt lend me her laptop when she woke up. So i moved t dad's. I wz just at 591 words when farah sed tht th mothers wer goin SHOPPING!
I went like FARAH LET'S GOOOOOOOO!!!
Cz tnte ita wz waitin outside yet mom wznt ready!
Tht gave me th chance t change my pants n prepare my bag >]
I opend th car door n came face t face with a person i obviously recognised calld Hamzah; bt i wz utterly shockd t c him in ther.
Bfore, when tnte ita honked, i wz abt t open th door without wearin my krudung. THANK GOD I DID O________O;;
*or else hamzah wud c my hair.
Then we pickd up tanta chandra n farah n bla3. I thot hamzah wz comin t landmark with us bt turns out tht he wz goin t his friend's t do a project. We mistakend th house n turned out tht it wz soooo far away from wher we wer XD It wz in al-messilah. I missed tht place ._____.;; it wz wher me n my ol best friend leila used t play tgether in.. *touched* [not physically]
He left with a bonk on th head at th car door. I laughed uncontrollably. Well sorta XD
In landmark, i enjoyed shopping. Me n farah went t th following shops:
bantano [or wtever it wz calld, it wz a shoe shop xp - we saw a heart with fire at th top n i claimed it as 'raging heartz' and i soooo wnted t buy it!! but mom ddnt let me cz it wznt on sale.. CURSE SALES!], pull & bear [i bot a reeeele nice shoe ther ;D], claire's, zara, mango, milano, monsoon, accessorize .. . wt else? it felt like a lot x.x;; i think it felt like a lot cz we spent numerous hours at zara + pull n bear XD n i got terribly hungry at 12:30 ;D *inget aj ya bs.. x]
Our last stop wz pull n bear, wher mom bot me th shoes n me n frh found rele nice n cheap shirts :3 bt i already bot like 3 shirts tht week XD it wz 3pm n we hadta leave~
At home i dd my h/w, then watched shigofumi. I rele like tht anime! x] Its so.. mysterious 8] i shall load it up rite now n watch *cz i have nothin t do D:
Dhea wz sick, so it wz just me n frh tht went t kempo last nite. On th way, it started raining. Uh-oh O: We wer just halfway ther when Mukhlis-senpai calld t say tht ther's no kempo cz it wz rainin. After tht carisa n dhe3 calld me n they too headed home. Th rain got harder, n th road got more crowded. I wz busy takin pictures of th rain n stuff n they lukd nice ;D We also talkd n lukd at cars on th way; i think. Just when we reached Hyatt Plaza tnte chandra calld farah t say tht kempo wz back on cz they wer waitin! Wt!?!
We had nooo idea how tnte chandra knew tht.. bt dad turned back without hesitation x] yay daddyy!! :"D *i hardly call him tht
Ther wz a fair amount of ppl ther - no fajar n iwan tho [aww poor farah ;D] - bt.. THER WZ ELANG *____________________* Me n dhe3 lukd at each other n wz semangat . XDDXDXDXDX we r indeed tres baka.
We dd dasar stuff n then moved on t th tangkisan n stuff. Me n carisa wer gud examples. 8] Cania once again dd th creepy wobbly head thingy [we shud give it a name...] n me n cariisa practiced hard. Me n dhe3 wer used as examples once, i think, n he sed we wer gud. we dd our ol' salto 8] I miss bein partnered up with th eagle tho. hahaha.
Om ali n tnte chandra pickd us up n we bot baskin robbins again xDXDXDXD Tht wz th 3rd time i ate th polar bear dip ice cream *.* i shall never get bored of tht beautius blue n white creamy minty goodness :b -damn i feel like eatin ice cream now >.<;; *throat itches*
Back at home , i . . i watched tv. :]
N had a nice sleep .
I guess th 2-yrs-in-a-row sick record is broken O:
*p.s.: turns out th english essay is for thursday th 31st.. XDXDXDXD o well ! :]
Sunday, 20 January 2008
.____.
I cried tday.
I think after school, after i realised 2 things, one of which is private; n th other of which wz tht my laptop wz NOT saved at all, im sorry t say, om ismail. I appreciate ur effort tho, it made me happy for 24 hours.
I cried rite after i sholat zuhur; with md behind me only of course she cudnt c or hear.
I came home from school all chirpy cz of some mock results i received tday.
In geo, i got a, ummm.. 69 out of 120 i believe, 58%. I got th 2nd highest mark with 81% bein first XD Lol. huge difference!
Anyhow, i got 2/20 for topic 1, which wz 'water' XDXDXDXD and my best topic wz topic 5, migration, with 17/20 8] I love u migration <3
It was of a HUUUUUGE relief when i found out tht a 58% wz a B! yeahh!! Iman, who sed tht th exam wz easy [me shaza n madusa sed it wz hard], got way worser than us XDXD MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! In her face! xp
OK, so anyhow, in maths, we got our mock results then too.
I braced myself.
*lalalala*
I expected shiny marks.
Yeap, i got em. Alhamdulillah x]
Paper 2: 59/70 = 84% A. tht wz th best paper 2 ive ever done out of all th other >6 paper 2s ive done for practice ever! XD
Paper 4:: 81/130 = 62% B. i gotta say, tht paper wz OK bt ther wer questions tht wer pure hell so .. yeah x.x;; of course saba th genius got 103.. HOW DOES SHE DO IT??!!
At th end of maths, at 12:30, i hadta go t this stupid beauty institute interview in th boys block. We hadta fill out a survey abt this university or somethin openin up tht teaches beauty therapy n i went like blekkkkkkhhh except th part abt facial treatment cz hell yeah i need tht .________.;;
I glanced at my watch n it sed 12:42, and i knew how late my watch is from th bell.
So i made a run for it, back t th girls block.
I lukd at th door and saw Hamzah walkin outside alone, i lukd at him for a second n just as we passed by i shouted 'Hi' and he sed 'hi' too, loudly, for once; bt i stared ahead. I appreciated tht too.
Bt I dd not acknowledge wt happened thru th rest of th day.
It was morbid. Devastating. T me, tht is. After school I turned on my laptop as normal, n began installing windows live mess. n my mouse, as ordinarily as can be.
When i wnted t exit some stuff from this google thing tht appears at th side of th desktop, i saw those green n red pixel-y things tht used t arise bfore dad lent th laptop over t om ismail.
I thot it wz just a minor problem. Bt i grew worried when th antivirus detected a f***in virus tht had th word 'silly' in it. Stuuupid. *who wudnt swear in this kind of situation? dont worry i never swear out loud; well, last week i dd accidentally. bt it wz th S word, n it wz bcuz of chemistry. x____x;; *dd i mention this bfore?
Then, th screen started blinking again. Ya Allaahhh. *now thts better :]
I rebooted th system, in hopes tht it wz all just yet another tiny error thtll go away bcuz th virus wz in quarantine. I dont think i shud hope ever again.
Hoping only makes my life worser, cz i expect better, bt gain worser. Yes, im young, and im hopeless-wannabe. I often say t myself 'dont get ur hopes up' bt i end up doin so anyway. Wt can i do t stop this? God, help me, amin. I know im a gud girl. I know i am. T____________T
I read Nakayoshi after shutting th laptop down whilst waiting for dad t wake up t report t him abt th accident. 3pm; 4pm. It was time t pray, and just as i wz wearin my abaya t play outside, dad passed by n i told him.
Time t go to jarir. it rele wz wt we shud have done in th first place.
Outside, i glanced t my rite n saw indra, fajar, n kids.
I searched for farah n nisa n turns out they wer at nisa's.
J'ai aidé nisa avec lui devoirs. *i hope tht makes sense x.x
C'était un logo de photoshop. *i hope tht makes sense too XD
De toute facon; or wtever, we sprang outdoors n i rode fajar's bike around th compound, then met up with th rest afterwards.
I totally forgot wt we did - just random stuff actually. Fiddled with th bike, kicked balls [ckcck u negatip thinkers *if any xD], talked, ladidadida.
I forgot why + how; bt somebody sed i liked indra. n i wz like, 'nooo!!!' and then fajar exclaimed, 'bs likes another guy!' and nisa who wz beside me sniggered 'iwann~' THEN i said loudly 'nooo bs kan suka indra' x__________________x;; *or somethin along those lines, i forgot.
i had NO IDEA y i sed tht. it wz embarassing. i do not, in any way, like tht guy; no offence. x.x;; They teased me t death; altho obviously th girls n fajar knew exactly who i like- love, actually. -/////////-;; *i wish i can blush > <
Hhe. So anyway, after tht, th Adzhan boomed and fajar's bike wz in major error and so ppl tried t fix it. I wz waitin for smething; bcuz of tht i refused t take farah home - sorry farah ._.;; As usual, i ended up waitin for nothing.
Something happened tho tht got me kinda .. quizzical. Wont tell wt it is :b
I carried my laptop to th VW beetle whilst eating Krispy Kreme doughnuts, yum yum.
Tht Qosmio G30 is indeed a PAIN t bring around with one arm with. x.x;;
Th ride wz TERRIBLY long. From 5:50-ish til 6:20 x_____x;;
I suffered listenin t techno n songs from th 1980s-1990s.
In jarir, turns out we hadta walk to th side of it t find th repair centre.
It seemed like a 1km walk.
We waited for a long time t get t our turn, n ther wz a problem with th serial number, which th jarir ppl from 1 1/2 years ago seemed t scratch th number off of th receipt; n wrote a different one.
It wz a loong hassle bt they accepted th warranty n told us t wait for more than 1 week til th fixing is done.
Alhamdulillah they agreed t fix th laptop.
Not alhamdulillah by th fact tht th hardware is busted n i mite lose evry single one of my files unlike th time om ismail brot it t his home. Th hardware hadta b brot from Germany. Guten abend. 8] xDXDXXDX
Th ride back home wz less weight-y, bt my throat wz so dry cz ther wz no drink n th sugar from Krispy Kreme sucked up all th remaining H2O. *sigh*
At home, i tackled ocha's laptop.
I thot i wud be free after th mocks; playin with my laptop n watchin evry single ep of Tengen Toppa Gurren-Lagann til my eyes turned sore; finishin off my Ps7 drawin tht i am so grateful t Allah tht i backed up in my USB; n well- i thot i wud b happier.
Nothing changes so easily, does it.
If anybody reads this, maybe then theyll know y i seem so depressed all th time ...
I think after school, after i realised 2 things, one of which is private; n th other of which wz tht my laptop wz NOT saved at all, im sorry t say, om ismail. I appreciate ur effort tho, it made me happy for 24 hours.
I cried rite after i sholat zuhur; with md behind me only of course she cudnt c or hear.
I came home from school all chirpy cz of some mock results i received tday.
In geo, i got a, ummm.. 69 out of 120 i believe, 58%. I got th 2nd highest mark with 81% bein first XD Lol. huge difference!
Anyhow, i got 2/20 for topic 1, which wz 'water' XDXDXDXD and my best topic wz topic 5, migration, with 17/20 8] I love u migration <3
It was of a HUUUUUGE relief when i found out tht a 58% wz a B! yeahh!! Iman, who sed tht th exam wz easy [me shaza n madusa sed it wz hard], got way worser than us XDXD MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! In her face! xp
OK, so anyhow, in maths, we got our mock results then too.
I braced myself.
*lalalala*
I expected shiny marks.
Yeap, i got em. Alhamdulillah x]
Paper 2: 59/70 = 84% A. tht wz th best paper 2 ive ever done out of all th other >6 paper 2s ive done for practice ever! XD
Paper 4:: 81/130 = 62% B. i gotta say, tht paper wz OK bt ther wer questions tht wer pure hell so .. yeah x.x;; of course saba th genius got 103.. HOW DOES SHE DO IT??!!
At th end of maths, at 12:30, i hadta go t this stupid beauty institute interview in th boys block. We hadta fill out a survey abt this university or somethin openin up tht teaches beauty therapy n i went like blekkkkkkhhh except th part abt facial treatment cz hell yeah i need tht .________.;;
I glanced at my watch n it sed 12:42, and i knew how late my watch is from th bell.
So i made a run for it, back t th girls block.
I lukd at th door and saw Hamzah walkin outside alone, i lukd at him for a second n just as we passed by i shouted 'Hi' and he sed 'hi' too, loudly, for once; bt i stared ahead. I appreciated tht too.
Bt I dd not acknowledge wt happened thru th rest of th day.
It was morbid. Devastating. T me, tht is. After school I turned on my laptop as normal, n began installing windows live mess. n my mouse, as ordinarily as can be.
When i wnted t exit some stuff from this google thing tht appears at th side of th desktop, i saw those green n red pixel-y things tht used t arise bfore dad lent th laptop over t om ismail.
I thot it wz just a minor problem. Bt i grew worried when th antivirus detected a f***in virus tht had th word 'silly' in it. Stuuupid. *who wudnt swear in this kind of situation? dont worry i never swear out loud; well, last week i dd accidentally. bt it wz th S word, n it wz bcuz of chemistry. x____x;; *dd i mention this bfore?
Then, th screen started blinking again. Ya Allaahhh. *now thts better :]
I rebooted th system, in hopes tht it wz all just yet another tiny error thtll go away bcuz th virus wz in quarantine. I dont think i shud hope ever again.
Hoping only makes my life worser, cz i expect better, bt gain worser. Yes, im young, and im hopeless-wannabe. I often say t myself 'dont get ur hopes up' bt i end up doin so anyway. Wt can i do t stop this? God, help me, amin. I know im a gud girl. I know i am. T____________T
I read Nakayoshi after shutting th laptop down whilst waiting for dad t wake up t report t him abt th accident. 3pm; 4pm. It was time t pray, and just as i wz wearin my abaya t play outside, dad passed by n i told him.
Time t go to jarir. it rele wz wt we shud have done in th first place.
Outside, i glanced t my rite n saw indra, fajar, n kids.
I searched for farah n nisa n turns out they wer at nisa's.
J'ai aidé nisa avec lui devoirs. *i hope tht makes sense x.x
C'était un logo de photoshop. *i hope tht makes sense too XD
De toute facon; or wtever, we sprang outdoors n i rode fajar's bike around th compound, then met up with th rest afterwards.
I totally forgot wt we did - just random stuff actually. Fiddled with th bike, kicked balls [ckcck u negatip thinkers *if any xD], talked, ladidadida.
I forgot why + how; bt somebody sed i liked indra. n i wz like, 'nooo!!!' and then fajar exclaimed, 'bs likes another guy!' and nisa who wz beside me sniggered 'iwann~' THEN i said loudly 'nooo bs kan suka indra' x__________________x;; *or somethin along those lines, i forgot.
i had NO IDEA y i sed tht. it wz embarassing. i do not, in any way, like tht guy; no offence. x.x;; They teased me t death; altho obviously th girls n fajar knew exactly who i like- love, actually. -/////////-;; *i wish i can blush > <
Hhe. So anyway, after tht, th Adzhan boomed and fajar's bike wz in major error and so ppl tried t fix it. I wz waitin for smething; bcuz of tht i refused t take farah home - sorry farah ._.;; As usual, i ended up waitin for nothing.
Something happened tho tht got me kinda .. quizzical. Wont tell wt it is :b
I carried my laptop to th VW beetle whilst eating Krispy Kreme doughnuts, yum yum.
Tht Qosmio G30 is indeed a PAIN t bring around with one arm with. x.x;;
Th ride wz TERRIBLY long. From 5:50-ish til 6:20 x_____x;;
I suffered listenin t techno n songs from th 1980s-1990s.
In jarir, turns out we hadta walk to th side of it t find th repair centre.
It seemed like a 1km walk.
We waited for a long time t get t our turn, n ther wz a problem with th serial number, which th jarir ppl from 1 1/2 years ago seemed t scratch th number off of th receipt; n wrote a different one.
It wz a loong hassle bt they accepted th warranty n told us t wait for more than 1 week til th fixing is done.
Alhamdulillah they agreed t fix th laptop.
Not alhamdulillah by th fact tht th hardware is busted n i mite lose evry single one of my files unlike th time om ismail brot it t his home. Th hardware hadta b brot from Germany. Guten abend. 8] xDXDXXDX
Th ride back home wz less weight-y, bt my throat wz so dry cz ther wz no drink n th sugar from Krispy Kreme sucked up all th remaining H2O. *sigh*
At home, i tackled ocha's laptop.
I thot i wud be free after th mocks; playin with my laptop n watchin evry single ep of Tengen Toppa Gurren-Lagann til my eyes turned sore; finishin off my Ps7 drawin tht i am so grateful t Allah tht i backed up in my USB; n well- i thot i wud b happier.
Nothing changes so easily, does it.
If anybody reads this, maybe then theyll know y i seem so depressed all th time ...
Wednesday, 16 January 2008
Switch
Total switch from yesterday :']
I was so happy tday, alhamdulillah.
Turns out i rele do havta wait t get my turn of happiness :b
Anyhow, th maths paper wz OK.
Everybody thot it suckd, wz hard, bla3; bt i simply thot it wz OK. I ddnt study well tho, last nite i attempted bt ended up fallin asleep n nobody woke me up x_______x;;
I skippd a lot of questions in th paper, basically matrix transformations n functions n probability *they wer SOO HARD x.x bt .. i managed t do th other questions 8] -i think
So after our exams, me n my friends went t CC 8] We rode iman's car, her lil kid sister is veery cute ;D
Dahlia sed she luks like hermione XDXDXD N tht's kinda true~
After tht, we ... uhh.. ate first? Mom made me a burger so i just bot McD fries, they wer HORRIBLY SALTY n Shaza kept complainin n sayin how she hates McD, i wz still wondern y she bot 2 burgers from ther tho.
We hadta take care of Huda [iman's lil sis] bt she wz no pain at all n she wz a pure angel *lol xDXD
First of all.. we .. uhh.. i think we went t lifestyle? I forgot. Shaza kept wantin t go t home centre cz her mom forced her bt we refused XD
in lifestyle we wer afraid tht huda wud break evrything in sight so iman/dahlia/shaza carried her around whilst me n madusa waited outside talkin abt her brothers.. they sound funny XDXD eventually i went inside too :b
Later on, we went t Home Centre; just shaza dahlia n me cz madusa n iman n huda hadta go get mcdonalds .. i think? i dont remember x.x
Home centre can be a LOOOOOOT of fun! XDXDXD
We found this disgusting looking carpet n i hated it t death n evrybody wz disgusted by it bt i tuk pix anyway t horrify ppl :b
Afterwards we played with pillows tht had stupid messages on em like 'daddy's girl' and 'almost famous'; i got th 'almost famous' after dahlia spun it around. shaza got 'daddy's girl' XDXDXD
After th pillows we ventured at all th beds n armors n dressers n bla3.. i found a nice lil rockin chair n played with it x]
Th rooms wer pretty basic n shaza got away with takin pictures of rooms for her house in egypt :b
And when we saw this massive mirror we tried t take pictures n succeeded 8]
Eventually iman n madusa n huda came back~
And we lukd for frying pans n tuk more pix 8]
Sooner or later dahlia went home; we went t Ltd Too n then debenhams :b
Ther wer veerry nice clothings ther n i wz glad mom wz comin t pick me up cz i wnted t show her all th guy-y shirts >]
Oh yes, we tried on sunglasses n tuk pix too 8] hhohoohoh.
Th others wer goin home with iman's mom, we hadta rush t carrefour n stuff. Me n madusa grabbed huda's arm n we lifted her off th floor n she squeaked n squealed n screeched all th time XD she's very cute.
In carrefour tho mom wz in debenhams so i said bye t them n rushed back t debenhams wer mom let me buy th pink + black shirt tht sed 'watch n learn' -ITS TRES COOL *.*- bt she ddnt let me buy th black western style billabong shirt.. it wz so cooolll D: mom ddnt let me cz it wznt on sale T.T;;
even so, th shirt reminded me of farhan.
HLOL XDXDDXDXD
Bla3.. bla3.. at home - i just .. watched ocha play th laptop D:
Bt farah saved my life by inviting me over t play 8]
Ther, we planned this lil photography session .. har3 XD we designed boxes with lil lovey stuff n then went outside n tuk pictures by farhan's house's lamp .
They wer veerry nice. *ehem2 x]
Back at home .. i read :b
a book called 'kiss' by jacqueline wilson.
its a cute book :b
im on page 150-ish out of 312, i think.
time t finish readng.
GBYE.
*md's being unpatient
isnt she always?
I was so happy tday, alhamdulillah.
Turns out i rele do havta wait t get my turn of happiness :b
Anyhow, th maths paper wz OK.
Everybody thot it suckd, wz hard, bla3; bt i simply thot it wz OK. I ddnt study well tho, last nite i attempted bt ended up fallin asleep n nobody woke me up x_______x;;
I skippd a lot of questions in th paper, basically matrix transformations n functions n probability *they wer SOO HARD x.x bt .. i managed t do th other questions 8] -i think
So after our exams, me n my friends went t CC 8] We rode iman's car, her lil kid sister is veery cute ;D
Dahlia sed she luks like hermione XDXDXD N tht's kinda true~
After tht, we ... uhh.. ate first? Mom made me a burger so i just bot McD fries, they wer HORRIBLY SALTY n Shaza kept complainin n sayin how she hates McD, i wz still wondern y she bot 2 burgers from ther tho.
We hadta take care of Huda [iman's lil sis] bt she wz no pain at all n she wz a pure angel *lol xDXD
First of all.. we .. uhh.. i think we went t lifestyle? I forgot. Shaza kept wantin t go t home centre cz her mom forced her bt we refused XD
in lifestyle we wer afraid tht huda wud break evrything in sight so iman/dahlia/shaza carried her around whilst me n madusa waited outside talkin abt her brothers.. they sound funny XDXD eventually i went inside too :b
Later on, we went t Home Centre; just shaza dahlia n me cz madusa n iman n huda hadta go get mcdonalds .. i think? i dont remember x.x
Home centre can be a LOOOOOOT of fun! XDXDXD
We found this disgusting looking carpet n i hated it t death n evrybody wz disgusted by it bt i tuk pix anyway t horrify ppl :b
Afterwards we played with pillows tht had stupid messages on em like 'daddy's girl' and 'almost famous'; i got th 'almost famous' after dahlia spun it around. shaza got 'daddy's girl' XDXDXD
After th pillows we ventured at all th beds n armors n dressers n bla3.. i found a nice lil rockin chair n played with it x]
Th rooms wer pretty basic n shaza got away with takin pictures of rooms for her house in egypt :b
And when we saw this massive mirror we tried t take pictures n succeeded 8]
Eventually iman n madusa n huda came back~
And we lukd for frying pans n tuk more pix 8]
Sooner or later dahlia went home; we went t Ltd Too n then debenhams :b
Ther wer veerry nice clothings ther n i wz glad mom wz comin t pick me up cz i wnted t show her all th guy-y shirts >]
Oh yes, we tried on sunglasses n tuk pix too 8] hhohoohoh.
Th others wer goin home with iman's mom, we hadta rush t carrefour n stuff. Me n madusa grabbed huda's arm n we lifted her off th floor n she squeaked n squealed n screeched all th time XD she's very cute.
In carrefour tho mom wz in debenhams so i said bye t them n rushed back t debenhams wer mom let me buy th pink + black shirt tht sed 'watch n learn' -ITS TRES COOL *.*- bt she ddnt let me buy th black western style billabong shirt.. it wz so cooolll D: mom ddnt let me cz it wznt on sale T.T;;
even so, th shirt reminded me of farhan.
HLOL XDXDDXDXD
Bla3.. bla3.. at home - i just .. watched ocha play th laptop D:
Bt farah saved my life by inviting me over t play 8]
Ther, we planned this lil photography session .. har3 XD we designed boxes with lil lovey stuff n then went outside n tuk pictures by farhan's house's lamp .
They wer veerry nice. *ehem2 x]
Back at home .. i read :b
a book called 'kiss' by jacqueline wilson.
its a cute book :b
im on page 150-ish out of 312, i think.
time t finish readng.
GBYE.
*md's being unpatient
isnt she always?
Tuesday, 15 January 2008
Nothing's gonna stop me now
Listen to this song: [link]
That song is sooo good.
And we can build this thing together
Stand in stone forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
Wt touching lyrics. Of course i've known other songs with more emotive lyrics but.. well yeah :b It's cuute too.
Anyhow i wrote this journal bcuz i felt like expressing myself.. I get terribly sad when i reach home from school.. Cuz thers nothin t do bsides study - which i dont wanna do cz its boring D: *i havta study math x.x;;
Well tmorrow i'm gunna go t CC after my math mocks tht finish at 10, with my school friends~ It shall b fun.. i can finally amuse myself since a week!
But wt will i do when i get home?
On thursday i have chem and french. thers loads of revision time for chem so i dont wanna study tmorrow; with th laptop busted, wt can i do?
Dad tries his best t contact th repairman bt he never picks up th phone ._______.
I've tend t ask God, y am i often unhappy. Have i done something rele wrong t get this kinda punishment?
But on th other hand .. there's somebody tht cheers me up despite all this.. i wish i can be with tht person as much as i can.. so i can feel happier; but with my luck rite now, i dont think thts possible >_>;; Of course, my friends make me happy too but.. I dunno, it just feels different ._.
Oh yes, afdal's birthday is comin in 9 days~! Hopefully ill draw a picture for him n give it on thursday in kempo x]
What do u c, when u luk at me?
Du u take me for a fool?
-another lyric from 'th starting line' > < Ther are no words, bt ur eyes cant hide wt ure trying t say.
*from aqua timez - alones [bleach op 6 XD]
mehh.. wish tht i cud c tht in ur eyes ._.
Even if u wont talk abt yesterday, i'd still b ther t c u tmorrow :]
*so true.. :b from th same song~
I shall b patient until th mocks end.. which will b this thursday, bt on monday thers gunna be a french speaking x______x;; and i am so not ready for it..
I feel a little bit unsupported by my friends.. I told fajar tht im havin my mocks n he just says 'who cares' .. ppl wud say 'thts fajar ure talkin abt' bt i remember once when i had my english 2nd lnguage paper n i wz walkin twards th sports hall, he came from there n calld my name, n sed 'gud luck'. Tht made me really happy n i wz able t do my exam just fine .
I thank Farah who's always wishin my luck.. Tenkyuu ya far :"] I appreciate it.. a lot!
You and me
We should be
Making a memory whenever we're together, yeah
Look at me
Can't you see
We were meant to be
Making a memory
-from a song ive never heard of bfore until now XD *plain white t's - making a memory
wt cute lyrics.. damn i love lyrics >.<;; they portray my life so much :'] Anyway.. this journal is getting too long x.x;; I dont even think anybody reads it XD Oh well, im nt bothered t write in my diary, YET.
*i shall do so after th mocks
[conscience: yeahh rite syania.
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That song is sooo good.
And we can build this thing together
Stand in stone forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
Wt touching lyrics. Of course i've known other songs with more emotive lyrics but.. well yeah :b It's cuute too.
Anyhow i wrote this journal bcuz i felt like expressing myself.. I get terribly sad when i reach home from school.. Cuz thers nothin t do bsides study - which i dont wanna do cz its boring D: *i havta study math x.x;;
Well tmorrow i'm gunna go t CC after my math mocks tht finish at 10, with my school friends~ It shall b fun.. i can finally amuse myself since a week!
But wt will i do when i get home?
On thursday i have chem and french. thers loads of revision time for chem so i dont wanna study tmorrow; with th laptop busted, wt can i do?
Dad tries his best t contact th repairman bt he never picks up th phone ._______.
I've tend t ask God, y am i often unhappy. Have i done something rele wrong t get this kinda punishment?
But on th other hand .. there's somebody tht cheers me up despite all this.. i wish i can be with tht person as much as i can.. so i can feel happier; but with my luck rite now, i dont think thts possible >_>;; Of course, my friends make me happy too but.. I dunno, it just feels different ._.
Oh yes, afdal's birthday is comin in 9 days~! Hopefully ill draw a picture for him n give it on thursday in kempo x]
What do u c, when u luk at me?
Du u take me for a fool?
-another lyric from 'th starting line' > < Ther are no words, bt ur eyes cant hide wt ure trying t say.
*from aqua timez - alones [bleach op 6 XD]
mehh.. wish tht i cud c tht in ur eyes ._.
Even if u wont talk abt yesterday, i'd still b ther t c u tmorrow :]
*so true.. :b from th same song~
I shall b patient until th mocks end.. which will b this thursday, bt on monday thers gunna be a french speaking x______x;; and i am so not ready for it..
I feel a little bit unsupported by my friends.. I told fajar tht im havin my mocks n he just says 'who cares' .. ppl wud say 'thts fajar ure talkin abt' bt i remember once when i had my english 2nd lnguage paper n i wz walkin twards th sports hall, he came from there n calld my name, n sed 'gud luck'. Tht made me really happy n i wz able t do my exam just fine .
I thank Farah who's always wishin my luck.. Tenkyuu ya far :"] I appreciate it.. a lot!
You and me
We should be
Making a memory whenever we're together, yeah
Look at me
Can't you see
We were meant to be
Making a memory
-from a song ive never heard of bfore until now XD *plain white t's - making a memory
wt cute lyrics.. damn i love lyrics >.<;; they portray my life so much :'] Anyway.. this journal is getting too long x.x;; I dont even think anybody reads it XD Oh well, im nt bothered t write in my diary, YET.
*i shall do so after th mocks
[conscience: yeahh rite syania.
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