may's not happy it seems

..
im still 15
thers still a long way t go
i still havta go t university
i still havta get married
and have kids
and make comics
and draw cartoons
and get grandchildren
and keep prayin t Allah
seek His forgiveness

i still have a lot t do
bt evrythin ive done ..
its all .. useless
evrythin ive done up til now
i dont c it in my future
i dont feel it ahead of me
i dont think.. anythin matters now

i rele love u ..
y dont u c it?
y do u reject it
and assume all these stupid things
i never even sed?
and when i explain it,
u dont listen
u dont wanna know
bt i rele, rele, rele, rele, love u
rele i do.
i cud say it
bt im afraid u wont even feel th same
n with a fate like mine
how shud i have hope u do anyway .. ?